How am I preparing for my trip to Tanziana ?

God has made it very clear to me in several ways that I am supposed to go on this trip. So I've been just living and holding on to that. Then on Saturday march 17th something hit me! Panic in a way thoughts not from God attacking me I was being assaulted with my own mind. Things of my past was thrown at me hitting me hard things that I let go to God. Then I was like woah I'm going to see this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HV15tlUxkmU

Like woah how can I deal with that?!?! How can I help people like that?!?! I felt inferior to the people who are going. So I got in my car and drove around but I couldn't get these thoughts and images out of my head so I turned to my best friend and spiritual leader. I had a long talk/ whine fest lol. And she spoke words I have heard and was trying to say to myself but it needed to hear it from someone else. Some of the words of engorgement were

James 1:2~ Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds

Erin's version~ Erin consider this attack as joy because I have something so great planned for you and you are going to do something great for My kingdom and Satan knows this.

2 Corinthians 5:17~Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Erin's version~ Erin you are a new creation!!! Yes even from yesterday Erin don’t you forget that I am willing and faithful to forgive in every second. Don’t you beat yourself up on your sin that gives the devil foothold come turn to me and I will make you a new creation again,( 1 John 1:9)

So how do I plan on preparing myself?

I plan on getting rid of media from now till June 10th ill still write on my blog from time to time to update you guys but I plan on really staying away from facebook major time killer. I plan on using all that free time with God I'm going to read His word more so I can hold on to those truths that He has written for when a dark time comes.

I am currently reading a book by Johannes Amritzer called How Jesus Healed The Sick And How You Can Too! I am so excited about this book .One reason is because I love Johannes he is so real and down to earth and funny, but the other reason is I work as a nurse and I can start using this information NOW I don’t have to wait till Tanzania to see people healed! This leads me into my other way I am preparing..... praying for people. Let me be completely honest ....one of my biggest fears is praying out loud Ive done it for my sister and my niece but no one else. So I am going to really start asking random people can I pray for you and when that knot in my throat comes I'm going to rebuke it cause I know that God hasn’t made me with fear!

Thank you so much for reading and praying for me

Love your sister in Christ

creepy things

So I finally had a few days off and got to go out with one of my very best friends Nikki. We went to this awesome thrift store thats on 65. There were LOTS of creepy things that I cant believe people had in their homes.

why are they staring at me? where is that guys shirt? quit hugging him its even creepier!

no words

if I was a parent I so would have my kids sit on this for timeout

the best for last thats a possessed angel

1/12/2012

okay so as you can see im never on this thing but i would like to start to try more this year. So i will write a post about the major things that has happened over the last few month. So keep in touch to find out about my nephew , my new job, my new car, my apartment, and most importantly my faith esp my trip to Tanzania thats coming up in June 2012.

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Can you just stop and pray for my trip to Tanzania as of right now I placed money down on it, but my job said that they cant give me the two weeks off. I need a miracle which I am standing open handed waiting for God to do, cause i know that it is His will to go on this trip and not my own. I will tell you the whole story of how Tanzania was placed in my heart. so stay tuned ;)

May the Lord Bless you !

Crockpot Meatless Mexican Chill

Okay so I have watched this movie called Food inc. awhile back and it makes me SICK to see how our food is processed I seriously encourage you to watch the movie ( documentary). So since I have watched this movie I have changed my whole eating style and I love it.... now yes i still eat "bad stuff" I am human. Anyways after watching the movie I went online to search some cheap and fast recipes and I came across this website meatlessmonday.com which is where I got today's recipe and it is YUMMY!

Crockpot Mexican Chill
you will need .......

• 1 15-oz can garbanzo beans
• 1 15-oz can black beans
• 1 24-oz jar of your favorite salsa
• 2 tbsp chili powder (or more to taste)
• 1 tbsp cumin
• 1 cup water
• 1 15-oz can Mexican-style corn (optional)

Directions

Turn crockpot on low heat. Drain corn and beans and mix all ingredients together in crockpot. Cover and cook 4-6 hours

and you get this :D YUMMY!!!


here is the direct link to this yummy recipe http://www.meatlessmonday.com/crockpot-mexican-chili/


I also cut up some peppers and put them into my egg whites for today's breakfast :)




Now that I have gave you something to fill up your stomach let me give you some scripture to fill up your soul :)

"I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe" (Ephesians 1:18-19 NIV).
and a great worship song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_7BQzic-zLs

Have a Blessed day :)

its been awhile

okay sorry I know I havent been writing on here often. well since last time I have some exciting news. So if you havent read I have graduated from Ohio valley school of nursing yay. I took my NCLEX on August 31st and on September 1st I found out that I am now ERIN SHANLEY RN!!!!!!!! YAY!!! thank you Jesus!!! " For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 and being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6. Those two verses mean so much to me. He is faithful in everything.

me and my nieces after I graduated :)

So I am on this kick to get healthy right now so i am going to have a post up tomorrow about all the yummy food i cooked today :) and all the recipes. So i hope to see you ( whoever you are) tomorrow.

Giving Up

okay so giving up sounds alittle depressing but stay tuned cause its the best thought ive ever had. Okay so recently i have been struggling with God cause I wanna meet my hubby. Ive been keeping my eyes wide open for a great man who is on fire for God and I cant seem to find him. so ive lowered my exceptions and started to like another guy who knows God and know His word and is cute lol. but he is a man in love with this world i quickly fell in to a trap i stopped look at Jesus and put my eyes on music and fashion and decor from my apt. I knew i was starting to slide away from God but I wanted to find my hubby. well God finally got to me THANK YOU! I was knocked to my senses again but this time I really think im going to give up. give up on what you might ask... the world im going to stop buying stuff from my apt unless i really need i mean actually need it not want it. I am going to stop buying clothes i have too many. I am going to stop looking for mr right cause Jesus is my mr right and He will provide a great man for me and for this i am sure. I am going to START giving my money to things that produce fruit, I am going to love and serve the poor, the needy, the orphan, and the widow because thats what my God asks of me. I hope to encourage you also on my journey of pleasing my God. I will keep you updated on things that happen and things that i am doing. this photo just breaks my heart.

2nd year of my walk with Jesus

This year has been a hard walk with Jesus but I know He knows what He is doing. The struggles:

Nursing School
This year was my second year of nursing school and the hardest one. I had a class called critical care and man did I struggle I really had so much doubt in myself, can I really do this? can I really be a nurse? I am responsible for these peoples lives! I looked back when I finished that course and said wow God thank you i leaned on Him everyday praying to pass praying to help the people that I took care of. I never learned so much in my life, i not only learned about critical care and how intense it is but i also learned how to trust God and myself. I realized that I am smart and that I am worthy and that I CAN BE A NURSE A GREAT ONE! I also had OB and peds rotation and I went in to nursing school saying I'm going to work with kids well as of right now I don't ever see that happening its far too sad and i hate giving them shots lol! but OB now that was amazing I get to be there when life is born WOW what an amazing process and so emotional. so as of right now i can totally see me working in OB. And as of June 23 2011 I Erin Kelly Shanley have graduated from Ohio Valley School Of Nursing !!!!!!! I still have broads and i have to find a job but i know that i have God on my side. I wanted to add how lucky i feel that God has called me (since i was 6) to be a nurse. I (me) get the privilege to be there in a time when people are at their worst, in chaos, in the greatest moments of their lives ME! I get to help people feel better I get witness to them. I am so honored to do what I do and i cant thank God enough for this special gift.

My Health
This year I was on a special diet to get rid of my kidney stones.... well it didn't work :(. I have 3 in my left kidney and one of them is too big to pass and i have 2 in my right and one of them is too big to pass. So I have been in some pain and went to the dr.s and i had to have lithotripsy and a stent put in. This was the first time i had a stent and I read some horrible things about them but I knew I needed to have one in. Well the stent was very painful but i got it taken out with in 5 days after my surgery and normally people have pain for weeks to months from the stent (even when its out) but because my God is a Healer I was fine in 2 days!!!! what a miracles THANK YOU GOD!

My Niece
I haven't mentioned her on her from what I recall but she is a special gift from God just for me I swear! She is like my own child well I treat her like she is. anyways this past week we found out that she a mass on her left femur and she needed to get an MRI asap. well MRI showed us that it a tumor and today i go to the dr.s with her to find out where we go from here and if its cancerous or not. let me tell you this news is the worst news of MY life I was so angry at God and satan. God how could this happen I mean I can fight but comeon! Im done God not Grace just not her please I cant deal with that. I went to PCO a church that I go to often and God spoke right to me and I broke in tears I LOVE MY SAVIOUR! He didn't do this and He only puts things in my life that I can handle (with Him of course) so I am picking up MY CROSS and I will walk along side with Jesus. For He knows the plans He has for me. I am so sick of letting the devil get to me so i have finally made the full on decision to put on my armor and my shield and sword and I will not listen I will not fall, I will fight for God and I will take as many people to His kingdom!

whats up ahead?
well I fell into a book called I kissed dating goodbye by Joshua Harris. IT is powerful life changing book and i know God is moving some major mountains for me. I am starting up a bible study for this book and I cant wait to see what God brings. I can finally say I feel free of the chains of having a boyfriend or finding my husband is finally gone I finally laid it at the feet of Jesus and I am in complete Joy! I cant wait to see what He uses me for in my special time of singleness. Me and my sister are also starting a out reach for where we live to reach out to the kids who walk the street, I know my God is going to do amazing things through us and i cant wait to see what my next walk with Jesus will look like :D

Thanks if you actually read all of this